I am not who I used to be

So I said I would track training more often on here, so here we go:

Monday:
3, 2, 1 Power Clean
3min rest
115#, felt a little heavy, 120#, tried 135 but missed it :( I know better than to jump more than 5# at a time, but I wanted it SO bad! 125#

3x3 Squat Clean @ 80% so 115#
2min rest
All I have to say about my cleans is thank god I have fast elbows!

5x3 CGBP @ 80% (moderately hard)
used 85#, probably could've gone a little heavier, 2min rest

5min practice handstand walk - I moved about 3 inches! Wahoo! Lol Gotta work on keeping hips over shoulders

5min AMRAP DUs - lost count. Took me 1min to get 50. Goal was to get 30 unbroken but I only got up to 26 ub.

5min farmers carry, HEAVY, for distance.
~300m. Used 52.5# dumbbells in each hand. Farmers carry makes having huge thighs annoying

Tuesday:
5RFT:
400m row
10 power cleans @ 75
2x 15' rope climbs
20:54
Felt good! Wanted to get each round of power cleans unbroken but I underestimated the lung burning effect of light weight. Rope climbs felt awesome! Which I'm stoked about. What up OCS?! The row was a little slower than I wanted it to be :( But more importantly I maintained a pace from start to finish instead of gassing myself out in the beginning like I usually do.

Mental notes - I'm working on maintaining a calmer demeanor during my WODs. I'm known to get fired up and pissed off about lifts and such >:) cursing plants for breathing and whatnot, but trying to change that habit. I'm really happy with how much progress I've made in the last 6 weeks. I started working with Nate Schrader as my coach and without a doubt it has been the best decision I have ever made. I've fallen in love with training. He programmed a lot of mentally challenging WODs for me - fought quite a few demons but in the last 2 weeks I've seen all of the fruits of the labor and I'm HOOKED. All of the goals I have, I've had for a year but they've always seemed so far off - that's not the case anymore. I've always known I'm capable of great things but I didn't think it applied to the world of CrossFit and training until now. I can't wait to see what he has in store for me in month 2! Like, I'm hanging on to my computer waiting to hear the new email sound I'm so excited! We found out quite a few weaknesses that I thought were my strengths over the last few weeks and some weaknesses are now strengths (What up squat snatches?!) so I'm really, really excited.

Personally I have had some rough shit go down with me since I graduated college in May. Look at Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs: no food, no shelter = can't focus on anything else. Not having a very good, stable job over the summer destroyed my mentality more than I realized at the time. Thus overtraining and a skewed perception of the world ensued. However, I'm very blessed to have had the best roommate in the WORLD to help me through that rough time, as well as the very best mother to support me in every way possible. Since I have gotten back on my feet I look back on all of it and truly appreciate what it is that my friends and family have done for me. Since I've moved out to the midwest I've also been blessed and fortunate enough to have continued support by the Crossfit community out here. The Progenex guys have been incredible! Aaron and Jason are so fantastic for WODing with me and letting me use the space when I need to. Tiffany and Brian of River Market CF have also been more wonderful than I could've ever hoped for. It's rare for a box owner to let you do your own WODs on your own time - so THANK YOU! I've been so humbled by all of the experiences I've had I can't express the feelings in words. I've had to let some people go, in good and bad ways, with silence or evil words, so I can get my mind right and I feel that I'm there now. I'm still pursuing my commission as an Officer in the Marine Corps which is the most important thing in my life right now and when I have gold bars on my shoulders, all of you who have supported me will be hugged, kissed, thanked, cried on and anything else I can do to say "thank you."

So here's to continuing to train and get better!